I am not a patient person. I know this. It’s something that I work on by talking about it, laughing about it and trying my best to recognize when I have done my part and need to let it go. Like now. I was recruited for, applied for, interviewed for and followed-up with all the players involved in hiring me for new job.
I was so confident 10-days ago. Now, all the self-doubt has crept in. They thought I was dumb. My dress was too low. They noticed I can’t walk in heels. My ideas were stupid. They don’t want to deal with maternity leave. They are going to pause on the position. They liked the other candidate better--he probably sent physical “thank-you” cards instead of e-mails.
But, I want it. I am the right person. I understand the market, I can do the work and I would be stoked to do it. Yes. I am very excited to have Baby T—even more now that S and I are together. And, I am also ready for a career change. I don’t see why I need to choose one or the other and I don’t. He is going to be an amazing father and partner and we certainly could use more money. Plus, I need a position that I am excited about that is part of a company that actually changes lives. So, I wait.
Well, not entirely. I am texting with the recruiter. He says they will decide by Wednesday, for real this time.
Shifting topics. I took today off to finish the “move.” I thought it would be harder. As always, I am lucky to have friends to help. Packing took under 4 hours (snaps to Lauren for keeping me on task) and S knocked out the heavy lifting with my former neighbor in half a day! Unpacking is on me. I am taking it easy. I have a room for my things and my own bathroom (amazing!). We sleep in S’s room and when I have to get up early (before 6), I will allegedly sleep downstairs.
It’s nice to have the free time. I took Jenny out to lunch for her new job. She deserves to be celebrated and it’s great to see the stress lifted off of her. She had her baby in August and did not qualify for Paid Maternity Leave or Job Protection since she is a German citizen. They were smart and saved to support a 6-month leave. But, money runs out—especially in So-Cal! It’s worth my time to start looking at my spending and am going to sign off to do exactly that.